There is a story about a Navajo grandfather who once told his grandson, "Two wolves live inside of me. One is the bad wold, full of greed and laziness, full of anger and jealousy and regret. The other is the good wolf, full of joy and compassion and willingness and a great love for the world. All the time, these wolves are fighting inside me." "But Grandfather," the boy said, "Which wolf will win?" The grandfather answered, "The one I feed."
I recently read this in a novel by Elizabeth Berg. I found so much truth in it that I had to post it. Don't we all tend to personify the part of us that we feed? The crime is not in having the two wolves inside of us, but it comes by deciding which one we will nourish.
Since I can't possibly improve on that Navajo story, I will sign off for today.

This has been the most beautiful spring day you can imagine! Warm, sunny, slight breeze, just perfect! I had an evening meeting tonight and on the way home I opened the moon roof, turned up the stereo and set the cruise control. This is the weather that I kept praying for through the long, dreary winter. Funny how the weather can affect a person's mood. I feel more hopeful, optimistic and relaxed when the sun is shining. As I pulled into my driveway tonight, there was a small herd of deer milling around our hay field. What a perfect way to end the day.
It has been a good diet day. I did a hard 30 minutes on the treadmill this morning, had a low cal breakfast and lunch, and limited myself to 2 small pieces of cheese pizza for supper (provided at the meeting). I even passed up brownies, cookies and multiple servings of chocolate (I had one bite size piece of chocolate). Tomorrow I am planning on going to the Y again. I have an evening presentation to make, so supper will be late. But I will stay strong and keep on the healthy track. Overall, this has been almost the perfect day, especially since it is Monday!!

Well, the long journey begins again. After a few months of being out of control, I am back in the weight loss game. In fact, as I write this, I am enjoying a small bowl of Fiber One and Bran cereal. Yummy! I never really lost control, but I must have the slowest metabolism on the planet. I can work out, eat right and still not lose weight. When I do lose, it may be a half pound or so a week. I know that is still something, but come on, how discouraging can that be? I see others eat more and do less than me and lose two pounds a week. What I really need is Bob Green and Dr. Oz on the case! They could certainly figure this out.
One thing I know for sure, I am probably the healthiest eating fat person you will ever meet. Lots of veggies and fruit, whole grain pasta, bread and tortillias, high fiber cereal, chicken (not fried) etc. I am switching from diet soda to water too. I guess I will just keep working at this until I figure it out. But at this rate, it may mean rocking and my great grandchildren and still trying to figure out how to get thin. . . Sigh!
For now, I am going to keep on concentrating on good health and exercise and let the pounds fall where they may (or most likely may not!)